| | [carried over from the lj]
All my life I've found it hard to cast judgment on people, but that's
become a struggle for me lately. Upon principle, people in my
life don't have defining immutable characteristics that renders one
flat and one dimensional. It's the reason for my forgiving conviction
in ever-indulging "the benefit of the doubt."
But I find myself less forgiving as of late.
Perhaps it's me getting older and becoming more disillusioned by the
world and what it has to offer. Or maybe these people really have been
solidifying their characters all along, and my naivete, in its
innocence, has kept me from seeing that; so all while people remain
amorphous and ever-changing in my mind, they've actually surpassed my
imagination and assumed their final states while I'm still dumbly
waiting for everything to be spelled out for me.
I don't know why such dumb things weigh in my mind, but it's just so
disheartening to give in to the idea that people just don't change.
I miss home people.
I went sifting through my iPhoto, and turned up
with thousands of pictures of Australian, European, Bostonian,
Taiwanese, and Berkeleyan places and friends.
I could find hardly any photos encompassing those years at home.
Where did all those home memories go? I found some here
4+ years ago I was sixteen, in pigtails and hovering over London on the London Eye.
My greatest fear at the time was that Mrs. Fosnes was going to hit us
with more European History when we returned. Oh yeah, and that Daniel
Hung (?, no Hong? Howng?) and friends were getting drunk and that I'd
felt strongly against the "seniors" doing so.
2 years ago, in a cold cabin up in the mountains (which mountains? big bear?)
I remember trying to hold onto what I remembered but no longer fit
into. I think charlotte was probably drunkenly dancing on some table or
another.. or maybe this was the time when everyone had already passed
out. Whatever it was, here we are, the three of us vainly looking only
into our own cameras.
favorite portrait of self.
smile please
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